Please know that I have nothing but deep respect for you and the gift that your body of work is. Thank-you so much for the resources. I know Marion Woodman's body of work but not Lisa Marchiano. I look forward to going on that journey. Wishing you and all of us so much grace on our journeys. xo Tanya
I found you totally by chance, after seeing your comment to Jane Clapp's post. I'm so grateful for you. I sleepwalked into this unravelling and un becoming process that you speak of so well, this year. It had been long coming: the confusion and lostness at sea, of experiencing a felt sense of the dead end to that "alternative" identity I had constructed of myself, of That (Healed!) Woman... Now I no longer now how to "make sense" of the past, nor how to construct a persuasive enough story about the future. And the present feels hollow and empty of meaning, yet a part of me knows this is the fertile soil of dying and transformation, where to surrender is not an option... Thank you for being a companion on this mystical journey of unbecoming. A fellow soul sister 🤍🙏🌀🪽
This really warmed my heart, Veronika, thank you for sharing. I think there is a profound gift in no longer constructing a story about the future. It does, very much, change our relationship to the present. That 'hollow, empty of meaning' feeling of the present is familiar, though it has been very long time for me know since I felt that way. But it was a sensation I experienced when I was in the process of letting go of 'needing to be something'. There's a certain addiction almost to needing to be something or someone. And like any drug, when we give it up, we also give up the 'glamour', the false yet thrilling promise that it offers yet never delivers. In time, that hollow and empty of meaning gave way to the experience of being, and being to feeling. And feeling gave way to a restoration that may be always ongoing in some way now. Wishing you companionship and tenderness on your journey. K
In the silence and the stillness, all I can say (or whisper if I touch this space) is... yes... Thank-you from the bottom of my heart for these words... I've been touching this space and it's been... excruciating is the only way to describe it. And- and if you feel uncomfortable with me saying this, please feel free to delete this comment!!- I'm used to your words/transmissions having a laser like focus. It's as if you penetrate to the core of something and write from there in a way that is wholly contained. This sharing was not that. I had to read it several times as it felt a bit energetically messy. I think the many (I'm sorry! :( spelling/grammer mistakes contributed to that. Lastly, do you know of any resources that speak of this space that you have touched upon more in depth? Thank-you!!
I really get how painful it is to arrive in this place of deep undoing.
Your energetic perception is on the spot, as this piece was originally written in late 2020 when I was in a very different place emotionally and energetically than I am now. I am re-visiting and re-working some earlier pieces in the process of writing my book. Your feedback, while not particularly easy to receive, is valuable.
That said, I have a lot of grace for myself. I will not always hit the mark. Navigating a chronic health issue has an immense and daily impact on my creative process. Embracing this and opening to what is arising in this now-moment is part of the on-going un-becoming that is the path.
As for other resources, I've found the work of Marion Woodman and Lisa Marchiano, to name a few, useful for women navigating our own descent-journeys. That and working with someone who has walked similar terrain and has internalized her own map for the journey of a woman's un-becoming. xo K
Dear Kristy,
Please know that I have nothing but deep respect for you and the gift that your body of work is. Thank-you so much for the resources. I know Marion Woodman's body of work but not Lisa Marchiano. I look forward to going on that journey. Wishing you and all of us so much grace on our journeys. xo Tanya
I found you totally by chance, after seeing your comment to Jane Clapp's post. I'm so grateful for you. I sleepwalked into this unravelling and un becoming process that you speak of so well, this year. It had been long coming: the confusion and lostness at sea, of experiencing a felt sense of the dead end to that "alternative" identity I had constructed of myself, of That (Healed!) Woman... Now I no longer now how to "make sense" of the past, nor how to construct a persuasive enough story about the future. And the present feels hollow and empty of meaning, yet a part of me knows this is the fertile soil of dying and transformation, where to surrender is not an option... Thank you for being a companion on this mystical journey of unbecoming. A fellow soul sister 🤍🙏🌀🪽
This really warmed my heart, Veronika, thank you for sharing. I think there is a profound gift in no longer constructing a story about the future. It does, very much, change our relationship to the present. That 'hollow, empty of meaning' feeling of the present is familiar, though it has been very long time for me know since I felt that way. But it was a sensation I experienced when I was in the process of letting go of 'needing to be something'. There's a certain addiction almost to needing to be something or someone. And like any drug, when we give it up, we also give up the 'glamour', the false yet thrilling promise that it offers yet never delivers. In time, that hollow and empty of meaning gave way to the experience of being, and being to feeling. And feeling gave way to a restoration that may be always ongoing in some way now. Wishing you companionship and tenderness on your journey. K
In the silence and the stillness, all I can say (or whisper if I touch this space) is... yes... Thank-you from the bottom of my heart for these words... I've been touching this space and it's been... excruciating is the only way to describe it. And- and if you feel uncomfortable with me saying this, please feel free to delete this comment!!- I'm used to your words/transmissions having a laser like focus. It's as if you penetrate to the core of something and write from there in a way that is wholly contained. This sharing was not that. I had to read it several times as it felt a bit energetically messy. I think the many (I'm sorry! :( spelling/grammer mistakes contributed to that. Lastly, do you know of any resources that speak of this space that you have touched upon more in depth? Thank-you!!
Hi Tanya,
I really get how painful it is to arrive in this place of deep undoing.
Your energetic perception is on the spot, as this piece was originally written in late 2020 when I was in a very different place emotionally and energetically than I am now. I am re-visiting and re-working some earlier pieces in the process of writing my book. Your feedback, while not particularly easy to receive, is valuable.
That said, I have a lot of grace for myself. I will not always hit the mark. Navigating a chronic health issue has an immense and daily impact on my creative process. Embracing this and opening to what is arising in this now-moment is part of the on-going un-becoming that is the path.
As for other resources, I've found the work of Marion Woodman and Lisa Marchiano, to name a few, useful for women navigating our own descent-journeys. That and working with someone who has walked similar terrain and has internalized her own map for the journey of a woman's un-becoming. xo K